Holden got drunk and sat at the bar till around one o'clock. He went to a phone booth and gave Sally a buzz. After Sally told him went home and got on the bed, she hung it out. Holden tried to make a date with a famous singer, then he failed again. Finally, he got down off the radiator and went out to the hat-check room, he started crying. Holden decided to go the Central Park to see ducks. He became quite upset when he dropped and broke the record which he had bought for Phoebe. At the duck pond, he started to worry about catching pneumonia and imagined his funeral. Then he remembered a reason why he didn't attend his brother Allie's funeral. The more Holden thought about it, the more upset he got, so he went out the park and decided to go home.
Holden walked in the rain
Holden took the elevator up to his parent's apartment, due to the luckily a regular elevator was changed, Holden got easy to come home. In ordered to find Phoebe, Holden spent an hour to "walk" in the house, finally, he saw the Phoebe in D.B.'s room. While Phoebe was sleeping, Holden looked her notebooks on the desk. However, Holden finally waked her, Phoebe was over happy to see him, she talked a lot to Holden and she was glad to save the broken record. After her enthusiastic flurry of conversation, she realized that Holden was home early and must have been kicked out of school. She started repeating "father will kill you" that drove Holden crazy. Holden tried to explain but she used a pillow covered her head, she didn;t want to hear. Eventually, Holden went out and got some cigarettes.
Phoebe was sleeping in D.B.'s room
Relate:
According to these two chapters, Holden's desperation, loneliness, and depression are showed clearly. What he did, he just let them go, he gives up to control his emotions. By contrast, If I am in the same situation, I will have an opposite attitude. Whatever how deep desperation you have, you still alive so you still have a chance to fight with it. "Never give up" is one of my life creeds. I am not afraid to fail because everyone would make mistakes. A weakness determination is a most terrible thing and I really scared it. If a person doesn't even have brave to do something, he can't success anymore.
Reflect:
After Luce left, Holden got depressed and disappointed, it hints that Holden thought Luce is phony, Holden wants to connect with others but he failed. Then he was drunk and he tried to interact with a singer but he failed again, Holden loses more faith in himself. In this case, Holden shows his cynicism obviously, he feels so sad and he starts crying. We can see a deep loneliness around Holden, not only his action demonstrates it but the cold rainy background also hints Holden's mental world, depression, and loneliness. Then he starts thinking he would get sick and he would die, He can't control himself, that brings Holden to a very danger situation. Up to now, Holden is fell into a deep depression and loneliness. He feels he is in an unexplainable situation, it's kind of like ducks. When Holden looked Phoebe's sleeping face, he said adults “look lousy” when sleeping, but kids “look all right.” It implies Holden thinks adults are "phony", kids are "innocence".
Interesting question:
1. How did Phoebe feel when she realized Holden is kicked out from the school?
Answer: When Holden woke her up, Phoebe had realized that but she didn't reveal it suddenly, she just doesn't want to make Holden feel sad. However, I think Phoebe feels depressed about Holden is kicked out from the school.
2. How did Holden feel when he saw Phoebe's bruise?
Answer: I think Holden doesn't feel so angry because of his cynical view of the world, though Phoebe told a truth to him, he maybe hates that guy but not get angry.
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